Thursday, January 05, 2006

After various attempt to communicate with me to no avail, my lovely spouse drove his ass home from work today for lunch. We proceeded to discuss our current dilema and I assured him that he didn't want to be married to someone that felt the constant need to yell at him and I didn't want to be married to someone that felt the need to do things that resulted in me yelling at him. He agreed, once again, that he will change his ways and that he will work towards being a better man. He asked me what it is about his behaivor that make me want to hang my self from my toenails and pour salt in my eyes as an alternative to deal with his drama.

I suggested that a little help around the house might be a good place to start. "Pick your dirty ass underwear up from behind the bathroom door and maybe rinse his dinner plate off instead of throwing it in the sink to wreak until I can get to it." I think was an exact quote. I also mentioned that it would be nice if he didn't bring his work-related-stress home and take it out on me and the kids and that he stop doing things to upset me on purpose. He is magical with this ability. Ask the man a simple question and be prepared to pull your hair out trying to get a descent response. Not.Fair. I also suggested that he parent a little more as they are his children, too. I reminded him how he may work a lot but my job NEVER stops. I don't "get weekends off, I am on call 24/7" And lastly, I suggested that he try and have JUST ONE GOOD DAY, where he doesn't come home in a shitty mood. A smile or two would be nice.

I love him and I don't want to end up divorced because I end up hating him because of his behaivor. He is a good man. He has not, nor will he ever cheat. He is not the type. He works hard to earn a living so that I can be an at home mom. I have returned to school to earn a degree in accounting so that one day HE can be at home with the kids, as he has said he would love to do. I would not mind being the bread winner one day. He would deserve such a break from the work world to do something that he maybe enjoys, instead of it being something he HAS to do. I just want to be recognized as a woman and a wife. Not a maid and a baby sitter.

Wish us luck. I will let you know how it goes.

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